They'll never find me here.
Three weeks ago
I held up my hands to my reflection
Showed it that
my knuckles were raw and cracked
"How can that be?" I asked it.
"I use lotion."
This morning,
my reflection shouted back:
IT'S BECAUSE YOU CHEW THEM.
And I could not tell if it was I
Or some character in a story
Who was relieved by this revelation
of oral fixation
and is it self-recognition
Or divine inspiration?
This compulsion to chew:
When people borrow my pens
I pre-empt their disgust
"I'm sorry, I chew,"
and I feel disgusted for them
Even as they take my ruined implements
and say "thank you"
and
"It's okay"
and
take notes on
the late cretaceous.
I feel connected to Paranthropus
That ancient relative
whose skull looks more
gorilla
than human
Thet call him
"hyper-robust"
and I memorize teeth sizes
jaw widths
sagittal crests
And I feel connected
because he got that way
through thousands of years
of being compelled
to chew.
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